Here Here!

Here Here!

Kelly, I guess my biggest fear with all of this compartmentalizing of my feelings is that I'll go completely numb and cynical. In a way, I envy the "mechanical monotony", so to speak, of your job --- I suppose you can always distract yourself (like by going on Aikiweb ) but in my own job the problem is more with people I work with, and of course, those people are tough to avoid. Sometimes I really wish folks would try to "blend" more with each other!

Jamie that is so eerily similar to a page in my life. Work is just a blur of rail cars and requests from people without faces. No feeling or attachment to the work other than the paycheck it produces every two weeks. It's like getting paid to be in lala land for eight hours a day five days a week. At home I am mindlessly turning my attentions from resolving one problem or chore after another. It is only in the dojo where I can bow away everyone elses problems and requests and truely look to working on myself. At least this type of escapism is better than spending your free time, as many other people do, in front of a TV or Computer game. Aikido is much more constructive. I just wish I had the free time thing going on. Kelly