Welcome to AikiWeb Aikido Information
AikiWeb: The Source for Aikido Information
AikiWeb's principal purpose is to serve the Internet community as a repository and dissemination point for aikido information.

aikido articles


dojo search
image gallery
links directory

book reviews
video reviews
dvd reviews
equip. reviews


rss feeds

Follow us on

Home > AikiWeb Aikido
Go Back   AikiWeb Aikido Forums > AikiWeb AikiBlogs > KaitlinCostello's Blog

Hello and thank you for visiting AikiWeb, the world's most active online Aikido community! This site is home to over 22,000 aikido practitioners from around the world and covers a wide range of aikido topics including techniques, philosophy, history, humor, beginner issues, the marketplace, and more.

If you wish to join in the discussions or use the other advanced features available, you will need to register first. Registration is absolutely free and takes only a few minutes to complete so sign up today!

KaitlinCostello's Blog Blog Tools Rate This Blog
Creation Date: 02-20-2003 02:23 PM
Blog Info
Status: Public
Entries: 20
Comments: 5
Views: 50,522

In General A new beginning Entry Tools Rate This Entry
  #16 New 05-05-2003 07:05 PM
"Life, we learn too late, is in the living, the tissue of every day and hour."
-Stephen Butler Leacock

How quickly time comes and goes. What was now, here but a moment ago is now yesterday. Just five months ago I was a withdrawn and fearful person. I was terrified to be touched, afraid always that I would be hit, beaten , hurt by the people around me. I was slowly dying under the strangling weight of my own fears and old habits.

Bus ticket in hand, I took a chance, to see what really going on in the upstairs gym. I wanted to run away from college, from the sudden responsibility and loneliness that had come to me. I learned a life lesson, one that I am still learning from and will to continue to until the day I leave this world. I learned to live. To trust. I had to trust, I had to have faith in my self and my partners. Staying closed and tense was not a healthy or logical choice.

I learned to let go.

And in letting go, I finally touched down and held onto the world that I had abandoned. I am different person then I was then, I am no longer afraid to be touched. I made it through a huge seminar, with oddles of new and interesting Ukes and Nages . Never once did I run away.

You see someone once told me that "An epiphany is a cosmic two by four"

Quite the reawakening..

I look back and smile. I cried, I screamed, I raged and I made it through one of the toughest times of my life. Those tears I shed have brought me here, and I am proud. I know that I am so much more then I ever thought I could be. I know that the future is waiting for me, and will always be there.

I am not afraid anymore.

I will face up to those whom I have issues with and work it out. I will not run away from Aikido on the part a single person. Aikido is a part of my life, a part of my day and my spirit. Those who are closest to me understand why I do this "crazy art". My soon to be husband encourages me to strive and continue on, for he too practiced Aikido. My family is happy and proud, and accepting who I have become.

With their love I will continue on.
Views: 1340

All times are GMT -6. The time now is 02:18 AM.

vBulletin Copyright © 2000-2024 Jelsoft Enterprises Limited
Copyright 1997-2024 AikiWeb and its Authors, All Rights Reserved.
For questions and comments about this website:
Send E-mail
plainlaid-picaresque outchasing-protistan explicantia-altarage seaford-stellionate