CANI C=constant A=and N=neverending I=improvement Progress is sometimes measured in little steps-if you don't take them there is no progress. Your mind can be your worst enemy. If you keep getting down on yourself psychologically you will only get frustrated and start "shoulding" all over yourself. Focus on what you need to do and keep the goal in mind. Quit getting down on yourself so much-you are suffering from the 2nd/1st kyu syndrome (JC went through it)-everything starts going to SH*T. Focus on the basics and continue training. Shadow train at home. Relax and have fun. The only pressure you have right now is that which you put on yourself or perceive. Yeah, the standards are getting tougher-you're moving into an area where more is expected-but fighting your own mind is not helping. Your main focus needs to be on endurance.