Keiko by "The Mirror"
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This column was written by Susan Dalton.
I was having one of those nights, not getting the slack out of
my shihonage and making excuses. At the end of class Jay Sensei talked
about ego and how we want to do well. When we feel we aren't, we
often make excuses or beat ourselves up. That's fine; it's normal
human behavior, he said, but it gets in the way of doing aikido. If
we catch ourselves doing it and let it go, our brains can focus on
more important information like our connections, our softness, and
what information our ukes' bodies are giving us. Of course he was
talking to me. Some of us compete by beating up our partners; some of
us compete by beating up ourselves.
Last time my shihan Tanaka Tadamitsu was here in the United
States he asked us to cooperate rather than compete. He teaches that
once ego and competition enter the picture, what we are doing is
reverting back to automated, habitual ways of being and doing, and
that this practice becomes something that is no longer aikido. Aikido
puts new habits into our bodies and trains us to replace our habitual
old ways with new responses for stressful situations. He explained the
difference between renshu and keiko, and I took copious notes. Five
years later I'm still pondering what he said, so this column is my
interpretation of his comments, which my teacher John Grinnell Sensei
translated and explained for me.
Renshu is practice as we would practice a sport or musical instrument.
Keiko, on the other hand, is practice to become a better human being.
As Tanaka Shihan explained, we have three centers: the area between
the eyebrows, the area in the center of our chests, and the physical
center of balance or "hara" that we are all familiar with and strive
to move from in aikido practice. Keiko requires engaging all three
centers.
The mental center (between the eyes) is the center for the development
of perspective. This center allows us to engage in reflection and to
build our capacity for self-awareness. As we develop awareness, we
identify blind spots and reduce "suki" or openings, psychologically,
socially, and physically. We also increase our capacity to connect
with our partners and others in our lives.
The center in our chest is represented by the notion of a "clear"
heart. When we have a clear heart, we do not need to see "the other"
as "bad" which we sometimes do to justify our own shortcomings and
failings. (My shihonage isn't working because he's such a stiff and
uncooperative uke. Bad uke.) Instead we can see that person's habits,
his or her habitual, automated responses. We may evaluate these
habits without dismissing the person as "bad. As a side note, Tanaka
Shihan directs that we should most often work with the partners we
find most difficult. Doing so gives us a chance to work out our
differences and smoothes out the rough edges in the dojo, helping us
to create that circle of harmony for which we're striving. He laughed
and said that after all these years (over 56) working with difficult
people is still the hardest part of the practice for him, but it is
also the most important.
The physical center (the center we're most familiar with from aikido
practice) represents will and intention. It is the conviction to
follow through to our intended outcomes. Many times we see ourselves
and others flitting from one thing or another at the first sign of
personal resistance to change and learning. We usually blame "the
other" or "the difficulty of the challenge." Either way, if we relax,
acknowledge our tendency to give up, and complete our technique or
intent, we build a strong center. According to Tanaka Shihan, the
more difficult the challenge, the more we must secure our centers in
conscious awareness and keep moving forward.
Aligning the three centers is the keiko of aikido. According to
Tanaka Shihan, being centered is the key to doing good aikido and to
being human. When we learn new techniques that require changing an
instinctual or habitual response, we often times become frustrated
with ourselves or others. We may think about giving up aikido. In
this type of situation, keiko, according to Tanaka Shihan, means
embracing the energy of frustration, feeling it fully, relaxing into
it, and continuing to train and move the physical center forward.
As we practice relaxing, opening our minds (center between the eyes),
opening our hearts (center in the chest), and moving forward (physical
center), we learn to shape and master a joyful mood in spite of
everyday stresses.
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