Janet Rosen wrote:
um, er....am I missing something, Brad? Why did you ask the question about it here if you didn't want honest and sincere feedback? If you did want honest and sincere feedback, why are you replying with what comes across as totally snarky?
Well, I read the post insinuating that I was dense, forgetful, or my teachers stunk, and when he "travels", he's greeted like James Bond. I live in Australia, and I know how Australians sometimes treat Americans, whether they accidentally blurt something out or not.
When I posted that, I was pretty frustrated--I think it's a combination of being rusty and not being "as good" at aikido as I was; also frustration in a sort of impatience.
At my age, after my life and experience, I'm not like I was when I was a kid taking taekwondo classes. I'm more critical of people. I have seen some of the best Aikidoka in the world (seminars). Part of me is just questioning the whole "white guys bowing and wearing white pajamas" martial arts game.
I understand tradition and you have to have respect. I find the classes move so slow--I guess I'm just eager for full-on randori or something.
Sincerely, sorry I got so defensive. I knew it was a mistake to blurt out a question; I guess I didn't expect people here to gang up on me--should have known better, it's the internet.
It really wasn't that big a deal. People thought I was stupid for five seconds, then continued what they were doing. Everyone was really nice, and complimented me on my rolls and throws. I guess I just focus on the negative becuase I did feel a little silly after I realized it was a big no-no.
So, thank you for you honest comments--but let's not blow it out of proportion--you all know I'm back after a long time, cut me a little slack!