Re: Uchi deshi and relationships
If shodan is a while away -- you've been training about a year, correct? -- it might make more sense to think about what you would want to get out of an uchideshi program (hypothetically; you can take it as fact that your perspective will have changed dramatically by the time you get there), and then look at the reality of various uchideshi programs. Who offers them, what are they like, what are their terms, etc. There is such a thing as sotodeshi; why does being uchideshi appeal to you?