To be honest I'm still not quite sure where I stand. Sure I am banned from one dan ranking, but i don't think he is the head of my club. ......
John, if anything you say is true, then the first step to getting back on the mat has got to be a step into the psychiatrist's office. Seriously, if you are who you present here, get some real mental health care soon. You need it. This sort of drama is cycling around for you, and you know it doesn't end well. I am not being an ass or a bitch or anything but straight up honest with you. Go talk to a psychiatric professional.