don't be sorry, I'm sorry. Do aim it at me now because I have some personal issues to bring up now and it probably was personal at the beginning but I didn't want to feel like I was being 'helped'. I went to aikido tonight and I walked out feeling quite aggressive and angry. It just doesn't feel good anymore, I don't enjoy it and I tend to clash with everyone on the mat. I think I have lost my focus/intention/attitude to training. Has this happened to anyone else? I'm not sure wether I should continue training and hope that I refind my attitude, or if I should take time off to reflect as was suggested. If these kinds of feelings arose in your training, how did you deal with them? This, I feel, goes deeper than frustration, I've never walked out of a class feeling so angry before. Thank you in advance for your patience and understanding.
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