Re: Changes: Into the second decade
To me, this all sounds like a classic case of Aikido burnout. Trust me, if you practice only once a
week, it will keep you involved and you will also be enabled to pursue social skills that you deem more worthy (feeding the homeless, or teaching children to read). I was surprised at your reluctance to teach beginners in the dojo, that is a real warning sign of burnout; helping people begin an aikido journey that may enrich their life is actually a noble mission and is actually every aikidoka's mission.
I hope you give these words some thought. In gassho