Hello Kaitlin,
I have to admit, You have a depth of articulation that is almost scary.
Not many folk have the skills to verbalize (after self-analysis) their deepest thoughts and emotions. My applause and envy.
As an aside, have you given thought to writing poetry and/or lyrics?
My own "journey" is much more mundane, middle aged guy who wants to better his physical as well as mental/emotional balance. A bit less "klutzy" than before. Less competetive, but just as driven if that makes sense?
Trust is hard. Practice and training puts us in trusting positions....trust or bow out. Makes you kind of HAVE to open up doesn't it?
Best wishes
Lan