It seems (in my experiences) that the people who are in Aikido for the long haul often don't think they are worthy of their rank, when they first get it. I know I am this way.
I just chalk it up to a good lack of ego and having a person (i.e. your instructor) be able to see you and your abilities for what they are. More often than not we do not have a true sense of our abilities and limitations. It's always nice to have someone confirm and celebrate your abilities. So, don't mourn your rank....celebrate it! Just don't get a big head.
All the Best.
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