That was basically the reply I dreaded...It's sad to say but it seems I was wrong and after all I need to just to enjoy doing it ( I really do )
Then what else do you need? I'm with Janet on this: I think that's a fine reason to train, the only reason you need. Aikido, or any martial art, can
be many different things to a person, but there's no guarantee that it will
be -- and I think that if those different dimensions do reveal themselves, it always takes time. If you like your training, keep it up. Put your expectations on the back burner, and just train. I find personally that I tend to mostly notice the awesome stuff when I see it in the rear-view mirror. Looking ahead? Could be a mirage.