Re: Poll: Do you currently care what your aikido looks like?
I'm 183cm tall & 128kg I have never felt that my Aikido was graceful (though one of the new students in my Dojo did describe my Aikido as Floppy ) & have never really cared that much about how it looks.
If you survive, Its good technique. If it looks good in the process all well and good, but there is no point in looking graceful whilst you are being broken in two. Which is probably a little Thuggish, but it works for me.
Now if I can only make that work in my Shodan grading then I might stand a chance in passing.