Re: i need help finding a book
Sounds like you're getting plenty of help, Amy! But whether or not one of the following are the books you're looking for, I would recommend them both (they almost fit your description):
Aikido and the Harmony of Nature by Mitsugi Saotome
The Art of Peace by Morihei Ueshiba (collection of sayings & writings, edited by John Stevens)
Good luck and happy reading!