Common fears I've felt about / during meditation, especially when I first began the static art of silence...
...will I lose my sense of identity?
...will I still be able to "predict" situations so I can be prepared to react to them?
...he who does not advance, falls behind?
...can I redefine "advance"?
...will I become some kind of "nature boy" and be mocked by the egoists around me?
When these thoughts recurr during my meditaions, I usually envision myself slicing the thoughts yokomenuchi with the sharpest live blade money can't buy.
A little bit of Peking Duck for thought,
Drew "Zazen for Nothing and your Seiza for Free" Gardner