That certainly explains alot Nick. Glad you didn't get into those fights otherwise you might be dead.
Death..., what is that,eh? No one knows..., everyone will find out. Whether by drive-by, plane crash, perhaps more satisfyingly by old age we will all get there...., as you well know.
I forget the authors name, he wrote "Bhuddism, Plain and Simple". Sitting at his terminally ill friends bedside, seeing that his friend harboured alot of fear about dying, he said "Don't worry, death is thus." His friend died peacefully that night. Perhaps he meant death is no different in reality than living. Maybe to be here, now is to know death as fully as you ever will.
I don't know.