The trick is to not be addicted to epiphany. Like any of the special states of being, it's a rare thing and can't be forced or chased or clung to, only welcomed if and when it comes, and allowed to depart in its time. No way to cling to the feeling of specialness, no way to guarantee that another epiphany will come tomorrow, or next year, or ever. That's what we have to be at peace with, to follow any way.
Perhaps that is one of the things abut Aikido I love the most, we have to let the techniques happen just like we have to let ourselves care and let ourselves have an open mind and heart.
None of it can be forced.