I know what is ahead of me but i welcome it nontheless.
Meaning a long road with absolutely no end at all and not some daft collection of colourful belts that mean nothing if all one is doing are the motions with no thought or philosophy. That should help clarify the confusion and unclear language.
If , after assessing the situation, I have to run so be it since i have done this a few times. I would also rather be alive than dead.