That was basically the reply I dreaded...It's sad to say but it seems I was wrong and after all I need to just to enjoy doing it ( I really do )
I think the replies were plenty and very helpful.Thanks to all who took their time.I have found what I was looking for.
There is nothing wrong with "just" enjoying doing it. Most of us are training because it brings us joy - and along with the joy, individual challenges. But what is a discipline and challenge for me may be awful drudgery for you, and vice versa - so often the first dojo one encounters just isn't the right "fit."