So, it's been a while since I posted
Well, Good news and bad news.
The good news is that I am still interested!
The bad news is none of my plans come to work, no shadow boxing training worked nor traveling 240KM 2 days a week worked!
BUT I AM STILL INTERESTED, AIN'T THAT SOMETHING GOOD OR WHAT
So, I 've been thinking; I am a bit an aggressive character and I tend to pick fights when there is none like I am feeling unguarded all the time; insecure.
Perhaps it's how I grew up or Kung-FU wrecked my mentality for good!, It was my first sport ever when I was 12! never did any sport before it unless you count running and playing around with kids of my age a sport.
Then I went to Bodybuilding and eventually PowerLifting, it's the only sport with less demands and I do get powerful (am sure I 've said that couple of times, it just won't hurt to remind
But I understood that's not the essence of Aikido, I need to be broken down..I need to relay on something else beside my strength.
So to my main question, since I am not able to find any dojo nor start one...how do I initiate my self/mentality into Aikido.
Like be spiritually and mentally prepared so when I finally find a shred of light into Aikido training I 'd be on the right track and may be get a boost!?