Re: The way others see you
Grading is an inherent part of our aikido careers. For me, I think I'll put up myself for grading if I think I will enjoy myself during the grading. Just like training, it needs to be enjoyed and not rushed. If you enjoy your grading, it's guaranteed you'll get great results after.
But at the end of the day, only the daily or regular training matters most.
Just my 2 cents.