Thanks for the replies, but I dont feel like im being egocentric. Maybe that came out wrong? I dont feel like I need to test. Aikido has given me and continues to give me all the necessary skills and ideas I need to be a better person. I dont care about how I compare to others. I like training my hardest and helping others to do their best aswell.
Its one thing to participate and do the various techniques with the class, and its another to get up and perform infront of others. So maybe I feel that I'm missing out on something by not testing or I want a more critical view on how my skills are progressing. Is there anything wrong with that? Am I really missing out on something by not testing?