There is a word in Japanese called hanmen-kyoushi (反面教師）. It is a person who does the wrong thing, and you learn from their example and do the opposite. Please use me as such.
It seems that the overall gestalt of the moment told you to let it go. It would take care of itself. And you understood that at the moment. Don't get hung up on it now. Stay with now so you can deal with the next thing that comes up.