Re: Farewell Aikido
Good luck in your new path.
From your description, it seems that indeed, something in the way Aikido is taught in your surrounding, did not fit with you. If indeed this is the case, leave without bitterness.
Do not bother with excuses, or assumptions regarding "Aikido" as a whole, there are too many varients. Admit to yourself this path was not for you and you were not able to learn even the techniques (correct technique are valid with resistance) let alone the art by pacing it.
I hope your experiance hasat least helped you to define your requirments of the next path.