Re: Aikido training - Why are you searching for internal strength?
Speaking for myself; I wanted to understand what is it I was supposed to be teaching. I found myself leading classes where I went through a good 1/2 hour of movements which were supposed to make sense in some way, and I felt I could not teach something in that way. I also wanted to understand what was supposed to be missing, what this aiki thing was that the old schoolers kept pointing as missing in modern Aikido, and so on. Because the terms are so over used (see the current example on training internal strength thread) and because there has been secrecy and honour and whatnot involved in the topic it's hard to navigate through all of this. I think that the reality of internal strength as a non magical thinking subject is going to end up taking the day.