As far as the crying bit goes.
I also think this is one of the key separation points between men who a) dabble in "internal power" for health and curiosity, b) others who only practice within "fixed arts," and c) those with decades of experience in using IP/ aiki in freestyle fighting- which is a rare skill.
Man that latter one is the rub - I keep wanting to take more time to go play with the MMA and BJJ crews, but then life happens and then I find some other bad habit in my body I wanna get rid of and then I find some other cool nuance I wanna spend more time conditioning to rewire the body . . . the biggest challenge in mixing it up has been finding the nice balance of a pace where I can just let the body take care of itself rather than getting amped up and reverting to old habits.
Anyways, sounds like you guys are having fun. Awesome