Re: KIAI -- Precision & Abandon
Yeah, my first aikido class felt humiliating... I got over it-- you have to, you have to stop caring or holding your personal dignities with such importance. I sometimes question what the use of personal dignities are for. Is it an honest sense of self respect and sustain? Or is it petty pride? I think people confuse the two.
Respect and sustain takes joy in being and doing-- Pride takes joy in being better and doing more. I think people confuse the two. There is no sorrow in failure when you love what you do because you love doing it-- there is sorrow in doing a thing when failure bursts your sense of self image to yourself and your peers.
It's been a hard lesson for me at least.