I find myself in Okinawa training with some rather advanced Aikidoka and am loving it. I love learning. Not sure if I'm getting better, but I think I'm trying. I am a slow learner, and this impedes my progress, but somehow that doesn't bother me. I have chosen a path of continuous self development and I can say with certainty that I am a better person today than I was twenty, or ten years ago. Some of that I believe came from my training in aikido, some of that came from being a husband and father who after making many mistakes is still learning from those mistakes, and lots of it came from me trying to better myself spiritually. I learn things from my family, my friends and from those around me. Yes, I really am training to get better. I'm just slow.