Seriously though, each of my steps looks like Im exerting a lot of energy...while strength may get me by, it would be nice to learn, (and be confident with), a more energy efficient way.
it's easy to use pure muscle strength. we learned this approach most of our lives. the road to learn how to use a different kind of strength which Endo sensei displayed is a hard road to follow. it required lots of solo practice and a switching of mindset. for me it took running into folks like Endo sensei, Ikeda sensei, Howard Popkin, Mike Sigman, systema folks, and a few others to convince me of there are better ways to do aikido. that's my nickel! (had to account for inflation