...3. The real reason I was taking this art to begin with was based off of some stupid high school fantasy that romantically had me kicking the butts of all those school bullies I had dealt with.
This is a recurrent theme and, really, I don't get it. Why you (pl.) didn't kicked bullies butts back then. Aikido or any other ma is not a time machine and won't bring you back in time for doing what had to be done.