Keep on practicing, but remember what's really important!
What good is it to gain the world and lose your soul? The point I tried to make is that your practice is not limited to the dojo, your house is your real dojo. It is where your lessons and your new found skills ought to be "sinking in" most. It's where you really discover who you are and where your integrity matters most.
If Ueshiba's vision for aikido was to somehow bring peace into the world by transforming the way we interact and relate to each other, then ours should be first and foremost to bring that kind of thinking home into our own little world, where we really can make a difference.
I am truly humbled by your wisdom.
"What good is it to gain the world and lose your soul?"
Thank you, I needed that reminder this week.
You have helped me go from "woe is me" to "I can see where I need to change my whole attitude".
The whole problem could have been avoided if I had taken the time to think of others before myself. I need to apologize to my family and maybe we can make a fresh start. From now on, I will try to make my home, my first dojo.
I am in your debt.