very nice column, I enjoyed reading it.
I can really relate to your saying that easy just did (does) not feel right. I have only been studying aikido for 3 years now, after an odd 30 years of karate. It is really a struggle to move away from the thought of fighting and to start looking at letting go and relaxing.
Reading your column at least assured me that I am not the only one having trouble turning my state of mind around
Thanks again and kind regards,
IJsbrand den Drijver