How many times are we going to hear this..
"Since you are taking the initiative, you're not doing Aikido cuz you're hitting/killing someone."
Really "listen" to what we're saying. Trust me, I've listened to what you are saying and agree with you, but you're misinterpreting what initiative is all about if you believe the above paraphrased quote.
Stop your mind and open it to new interpretations and meanings. You may find a truth or two.