Stelios Papados wrote:
Patience, controling situations better will become obvious in many aspects of your life as years pass by and you will probably notice that in real life long before it appears in the dojo practice.
thank you for the kind words.
i understand a lot more of your responses now. i'm sorry if i sounded frustrated earlier; the truth is i just didn't understand what you guys were telling me. Aikido is a mountain of knowledge and you will never reach the top.
i can never forget that night, though. for a split iota of a second, i truly felt something. then you get up and it's gone, like it was never there. i'll keep training in search for the next one.