Rigel Keffer wrote:
I drive approx. 1 1/2 hours to dojo, work out for 2 hours, drive 1 1/2 hours home for each class. So, there's got to be something to this!
In random order/level of importance not revealed by numbering:
1. Because since the divorce, it's the most human, physical contact I get during the week. Never underestimate how essential touching needs are. I have desperate need for raw physicality in my life right now. I don't have sex. I don't have snuggling and cuddling. I have aikido.
2. Because those moments of pure ki are addictive. They are rare and spectacular. Every now and then, I actually kind of get something right and feel a rhythm and flow and energy and it is breathtaking, exhilirating, and addicting. Empowering.
3. The people. Aikido seems to attract and RETAIN an exceptionally darling, precious, QUIRKY, fun, sound, safe, honorable, integrity-laden, genuine, sincere, kind, passionate, lighthearted yet grounded community of people. People with strong arms and smile crinkled eyes ... people who teach from the heart and embrace you even as they are throwing you ... people who bring gentleness to a potentially harsh discipline ... People I can trust and love and laugh with. Dedicated aikidoka --- the real students, the ones who are truly into it --- are an indescribably precious treasure for whom I thank God.
4. It makes me feel strong. It helps me hold my head up and my shoulders back. I can handle seemingly unrelated things so much better as a result of martial arts training, dumb stuff that used to absolutely stress me out like the bank making an error on my account, finding a new insurance company, the car making a disturbing sound. I can't explain it, but the more I'm training, the better I can handle life's wrinkles. I just feel stronger all around, muscles and mind. And braver. Because I try things on the mats I normally would never have pushed myself to attempt. And, I frequently shock myself by pulling off some of the daring stuff. Even something as simple as the fact that I can and do get up over and over again after getting thrown, pinned,and all around battered over and over again shows me that I'm tougher than I thought I was. Aikido helps me be stronger, braver, and tougher. Aikido is helping to grow me into being a tough chic, a woman with presence.