Re: Too many expectations?
I can only relate my experience, so here goes.
I had to let go of my expectations and pre-conceptions. I had to learn to enjoy training for training's sake. When the life lessons appear, and they do, I try to recognize them and go back to training for training's sake. The less I look for training to change me and my life the more I notice how much of an impact it has. I don't even think it's aikido training specifically. I think the same things could be found in dedicated training in most anything. I know musicians who talk about things they've learned about themselves/life through music training. I think the trick is to find something that you enjoy enough to have a long-term, goal-less practice and to be open to the lessons when they appear.