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Sometimes I just know when to not go to the dojo. Saturday I felt kinda crappy and woozy but I knew the Best Place to Be was at the dojo, even though I didnt' make it all the way through class. But tonite there is this undefined feeling of not quite rightness that I just don't want to bring down there and share with my classmates & the kids.
I've really learned to like training with the kids, they're really very inspiring and watching them progress so quickly makes me feel good about both them and myself, and since I am a roll model (spelling intentional) I don't want them to see me when I'm grumpy and I don't know Why(why I'm grumpy. I know why I don't want the kids to see me this way!).
Maybe I'm copping out on my training, maybe I'm protecting the kids, maybe I'm protecting myself.
Maybe I just had WAY too much chocolate & sugar last night and I'm paying for it today. Its not as if I had something Better to be doing- I could be Working but I feel like I shouldn't even be doing that, so now i'm going to conciously go Do Nothing.
If I make it to SF tomorrow nitgjt and theres training before the tests maybe I'll get on the mat. Maybe I won't.