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Today class went well. I actuly felt like i may have goton a litte bit of what was going on and some parts were even fun. In the frist part we did alot of punching the person and then back falling. The other person throw you by pusing your neck or grabing your back and a new one going under your arm and grabing the wrist, then throwing you back. I was happy beacuse mostly I did not put my hands back when I did a back fall. Yay me! Then the second half we worked with boken. I kinda staring to finaly know boken cotta one. I then not sure what the next one we worked on was, but I knwo I don't know it really well. I ened up geting correced on making an agressive face , or should I say lack there of. The person whom I was working with siad it confuse people when you are not agress enoff, or don't focouse on the power enoff. Espely when youi have a wepon in your hand. The wepon says I am going to attack and if your face dose not say that then it's confuseing. Wich I get, just was not relly constios that I was not , nore that it was SO inportent. I aprently do not hit hard enoff, so I worked on hiting a sorwd that was held by my partner. I kinda am afreind to not hurnt the other parson but , I gess I have to trust my self enoff that I am not going hurt the other person and I control my self well enoff. Then we worked on something taht we were suposed to work on in the first place. wich somehow I ened up hiting my head I not entrly sure if I did or the other person,
So, class todaay we did this activitly wher you have for people throw in a circle and you go arond and when you thrown the person twice you swich and you trow. I did not like it because well , I was confused for the frist half and second I not sure I like speed. I sure it did not help that one of the people earlyer hit my rist and I gess harder then I thought it hurt midly, which surprced me, I thought that was it mostly a suprice becaseu they were not suposed be doing that spicicaly. However, I did the roles anyaway and relized after a few it was still hurting. I not sure what was up with that, but then mabby it is like my acles jsut week and I need to wrok throw it. Odd ayway. I also relized that I did better focsing today, but I seem not beable to very well, but I notieing that in other areas as well, I need to figue out what is bothering me and how to fix it. I have some ideas , but I not sure I can fix them. I also relly am not likeing that my dojo dose not have a set rutine , not relly like we do difrent actives each time and not even simililar, wich I am adapdting to. However, I have set up certin areas to be the same , so I can deal with the others not and some people don not seem to like it when I do this. Today someone told me to move to a difrent part of the mat becaue I always am on this one part, wich is kinda true unless I have to move, I know it , I just did nto like her telling me I had to go somewhere else. I mean I gess I should, just what made
It was a dark and stormy day, but the night was clear. We had alot rain today and at lest to me it was cold. I went to Aikido and I had prepared my self for one teacher, but turned out to not be so. I not sure why but the pariynoia set in agin. Which really makes no sence. I mean I am not relly seacred of sissay, I am werry of him becaue I do not know how I am soposed to be arond him. I mean one mint and with some he is normal guy whom just so happens to be teaching Aikido. Other times you are not to even ask him to brow certen items out of respect. I am confused, but I not afried of him or relly anyone in my dojo. I mean, I not buddies with them ither, I have a gut felling and proven to be true mostly they would not intentetuly hurt me. So, why I was prynoyed and about what I am not sure. I knew thow I need to fight it and be there.
So, we were suposed warm up, i gess and evetuly sissay would sart class. Thow he did not do this till abotu ten mints after he should have. Which buged me, partly becaeu they were talking and when I tryed to lesson, I did not find a way in, and when sisay tryed to engage me I gess. Inother words asked me aquestion I deced not to jsut answer with yes or no and say a wee bit more. in one ear out the other. so , I tryed to just medite and get my mind to be there, kinda got it to.
sisay stared class, then told us to warm up, thow I hate this because they once told me to strech wetever hurt last time, so if noting hurt? Also
The assient sisay, ( he also teaches wensday nights class) took over sisay's class.. I deceided to go dispite the fact that I had been avoiding his class because well, lets just say I don't lurn from his teaching aproch well. He was actuly being nice for him last class, so I decided that I would try and saterday is the more popular class. Meaning that others might be able to help me if he let them. Who knows I may gain observation scilles. So , I arive and alot of the people whom are normaly there are not. The class seeemed reltively productive. I mean I lurned alot and sisay was not too bad ither, not overly helpfull, but not untrying. Alot of what we did was above my head, but I got some of it and that is a start. As , sisasay siad today it is a lurning procces, and evergrowing one.
On a side note I relized that I should probly tell agin my sisay that I am not going to be coming to the dojo after sometime in early August. I got into HSU and that is way too far to commute. lol ( 13 hour drive) Or should I not tell him? People come and go and I only been there for about 8 months I gess( since about April of 09) , not like I am inport member or anything?
I had a preddy good class last night. I went , I know most of it I was not good at , nore did I even have a vage idea of how to do any of it. At lest that was mostly because it was heard and I had not been exposed to it much previouly. However, I for somereson could nto get my left side to do duble slap rolls at all and I also for somereson noticed that when I get scared I tend to want to pull the ground twards me , ( ie put my hand back as if I am grabing the mat) insted of just let the inevtable happen of gravity taking me down to the ground. I not sure intrely why that is. I working on it. I also know I need to lurn how to flow with other people, I have a gut feeling this is going to be a heard thing, but a rellly good thing for me to lurn. I as I know I have metntioned befor am on the Asburgers sepctrum. Meaning I do not know what to due with cues I pik- up on in normal setings, so chances are I wont know what to do with the cues i pick up here ither. Hence , not know how to flow with the person. I tryign to figure it out, but I knwo I not good at it. I not even ok at it. I not horable but I nto at all where I would liek to be. I was working with soemone whom just got there back belt on a veration of a movement and they tryed to make me to the uke part and I screwed it up, so he could nto do what he was trying to desmestrate. I know 3 out the 4 teques for my test 6th kuy. Which is what we ened the night working on. I think sisay saiad something about h
Today was my second class of the new year. I started out horbaly bad. Twice I got severly dizzy and felt as if I was going to fall over. I am srue this was not aided by the fact the mint I walked in the Dojo and I not even sure why I felt extrely perionoyed. I felt like just walked into a pnainl that was going to junde everything I did or that I was already awating the dection for some action that I did not even do yet. Like it was diffrent demetion all togetether. So , since I had a few mints I tryed to bring my self back to realty, thow the felling lasted most of the class, not till the end di it pass some. I not sure why I felt this way becaue this class out of all is the one where sisisay evsises that we should be having fun at the same time as lurning. Kids are with us for the frist half. Plusse I tryed to remind my slf what was the worst that could happen. So, I went ahead with class. We did alot of rolling where I felt like I was going to hit someone too many people for my liking I gess, or at lest for today. I also got relly dizxzy a cupple of times. I stood by the door so hoping to not fall down and also hoping that I would be left alone. A fello student asked me if I was ok and I siad kinda. With a noned of my head. I tryed to resome pratice, thow it did not help that I was seeing images that I not sure were there, not like they could not be but like how things would turen out. People coliding ect. I got back out there then we were to Cosie falls
I did ok , for not doing Akido for 2 weeks. I felt like today thow my brin wiries were not conconeting fully. I kinda wanted to be able to just work on review and slwly but not how it goes. Thats ok it forces me to think more on my feet. I trying to lurn how to do that. I did get to do some review and then next exam requriments. I am hopfull to lurn as much as I can before I stop in the fall for school. Going up North is a bit of cummute. I try to take a class up there throught the school , but wont be the same. I courntly work out at a relxaed dojo, but a good dojo. The sisay who runs it calls it a family dojo. It is throw the city so we only get two nights a week for 2 hours and then on saterday we get to have a kids class and then 2 hours for the Adult class. Anyway, I was wondering if anyone had any ideas of how to better focose in class.