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	<title><![CDATA[The Final Frontier]]></title>
	<body><![CDATA[or should that be The Next Frontier?

Now that we've gotten to the good stuff where do I go now?
 
Despite X years of training, Aikido does not, cannot, make you (one?) something you're (one's?) not.  Part of the reason I took it up was because of my natural tendancy to undermine myself at every step, in just about everything I do outside of the climbing wall.  The trouble is I am so used to doing that now, that it (it being the miraculous transformation from easily angered, insecure person with pronounced doormat tendancies and the organisational capacity of a lamp post, to invicible sword goddess (don't ask - ed.)) is not happening like I thought it would.

I still have a whole heap of issues with confidence (especially my tendancy to follow blindly/take what I'm given rather than adapting or fighting for something better ) but I will try and take the positive feeling about my grading into other ares of my life!!

If I'm honest I guess I'm in a rather quickly developed post grading slump.  Not about my aikido, I'm enjoying the freedom to make things up and try things out, but in everything else.

hmm... Tea! I need a nice cup of tea and a sit down me thinks!  That and a hug.  Mainly because I can't drink after the Cider I could really do with. ;) 

Any advice for the next stage?  Is there a next stage? If this was a hollywood film the next new student I tripped over at the Dojo would change my life.  I'll get back to you on that one!

Love  Ali]]></body>
	<date>04-30-2008</date>
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