12-11-2009, 08:48 AM
Ive been reading many topics on your site, and I find it calming, in alot of areas, to read about others with the same questions as mine.
Ive sat on the sidelines for 3 and a half years, watching my oldest son work himself up thru the ranks of Taekwondo, and then into Kyukido. My wife joined him, and then so did my youngest son, but I still sat and watched. I wanted very much to join in, but for fear of looking stupid, or not capable, I didnt. Well, 1 year ago today, I joined Kyukido with the family. It was a major struggle physically and mentally in the beginning. I kept thinking to myself, how in the world are these people doing what they are doing. I kept at it, and found my place within my training. Early on, I thought, Kyukido was frustrating to learn, until I joined in the Aikido class our school offered. The Aikido seemed hopeless for me, and almost had me beat, where I thought, maybe this isnt for me. I pushed thru these feelings, which by the way, were all in my head. ( as Im sure all of you can agree with). The frustrations came mostly from not understanding the terminology, and trying to make my body move without thinking. I didnt get it. A few months after I started Aikido, I thought I would give Judo a go. Now, that was the MOST frustrating thing to pick up on. You see a trend here? Here is where I feel I am today. My Kyukido, in my opinion, has greatly improved, because of my training in Aikido. My Aikido has greatly improved, in my opinion, because of my training in Judo. When Im practicing in these arts, I feel like I understand why Im doing what Im doing. Ive learned to breath, relax, and enjoy. I just need to find another art to help my Judo. hahahah.
I recently tested for my 5th kyu in Aikido, blue stripe in Kyukido, and I just earned my first rank in Judo. All three of these arts, although very very different, seem to compliment each other inside me. I feel great. I feel strong in mind and body. More so, than I ever have in my life. I used to look at the (ever famous term) black belt as a goal. To be honest, now that I feel Im starting to understand the real teachings behind Aikido, and what the martial arts really mean to me, those black belts, which I will get to when the time is right, are not my goal. My goal is within myself. Im not sure of the words to describe this, but I feel as if, every level of training will bring new changes inside, to my personality and how I present myself to the world around me. At 39 years old, I never thought I would be here, doing what Im doing. My only wish, is I would have begun this when my body could do what my mind was telling it to do.
Sorry for the long winded story. I look forward to continuing to read what the members of this site have to offer, and Im sure it will help me thru those times, when I start to doubt myself again.
Welcome to AikiWeb and thank you for your introduction.
12-11-2009, 11:32 AM
Hey there! Welcome to the club! :p
That sounds like a curious barrage of styles to study at once. I'm usually of the ilk that prefers not mixing styles early in ones training, but if it is working for you - then keep at it! Everyone trains and learns differently, and it sounds like you'r managing fine.
Glad you perservered through your initial difficulties and came to join us on the forum.
12-11-2009, 12:07 PM
The school we attend, has a leadership program. Since I pay for my wife and 2 kids, I join for free. In the leadership program, we can attend all of the 4 arts they offer, so I try to take full advantage of that. I do find myself using alot of Aikido in my Kyukido, as far as one steps go.