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I think too much. I don't think about anything in particular, but I think too much. This is extremely apparent when I'm trying to learn a new technique in class. I watch (or try to watch) as sensei demonstrates a new technique but it is quickly forgotten because I focus on the beginning and end of the technique.
I have heard numerous sayings that the journey is so much more interesting than the destination. This is also true for practicing a new technique I think (there I go again…thinking). I focus on the beginning so much (uke grabs my left wrist with his right hand), that I freeze up right after uke starts. It is possible that if I don't freeze at the very beginning, I freeze somewhere in the middle when I ‘realize' what I am doing.
I only start to ‘flow' when I think (…lots of thinking) about the other person. I picture our centers moving around the center of the technique. Then it starts to work or rather I start to work. This can be frustrating at first though. I usually project my frustration and anger onto uke; saying that they are resisting too much or that they aren't good at ukemi (‘Aikido works. Your aikido does not. There is a difference').
There is a book written about this ‘flow' experience (actually titled Flow: The Psychology of the Optimal Experience) that analyzes what it takes to get into that smooth state of being. One of the elements needed to experience ‘flow' is a loss of the feeling of self-consciousness. This is exactly what is needed when doing Aikido. You blend with your partner continuing their motion and shaping it to your center. Very exciting stuff.
By the end of training though, I feel like I have remembered myself and my uke. It's incredibly fun to connect with an individual in such a dynamic way. That's what always brings me back for more. Like that perfect swing in golf, connection is what brings me back.